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why being perceived is exhausting

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18 JUL 20264 spoken lines61 wordsNaming it

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Why simply being perceived can leave you exhausted.

02Self monitoring is a second job. All day, part of you watches how you're coming across.

03You're running a live render of yourself from the outside, updating it with every glance and pause.

04That's why some people cost nothing to be around. The render stops, and that stopping is what rest actually is.

the render is the fatigue